Friday, December 30, 2011
I'm so inconsistent. I say one thing, but do another. I play the Christian game sometimes pretending that everything is perfect and dandy in my like, but it isn't. I give into satan's lies so often and fall right back into old sin habits i made before I even knew the Lord. it's disheartening sometimes, and hurts so much. Often I find myself asking why am I back into it? Why am I having to learn the same lesson again? Why do I feel like once i'm coming out of a situation, I go right back into a new one? Sometime I don't know the answers, so I turn to myself to see how I can get out of it on my own. I turn to people to try and help me, but when in all actuality I should be turning to Christ. He has blessed me so much in my life and is continuing to bless me! I look at my past and see the person I was and I KNOW that I would never go back into that lifestyle. I am just struggling right now, and caught up in a sin that is being taken care of through Godly council and in my reliance of the Lord to take it away and get me through it. So all in all, I just need prayer right now. For victory, for patience and for trust. Until the pen meets the paper, Dylan.